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19 June 2005

Finally i feel 18... i feel old...
old here means have to be mature
no more a little girl, but a lady:
cannot depend on feelings so much
have to think of others around you
aw...all these left me expressionless
not knowing how to face the increasing demands in life
and the uncertainty ahead
being the second oldest in my cell makes me feel that i just have to grow up
aw... i really dunno how to feel anymore in the sense
is this call growing up?
i fear that i don't match up to what i ought to
it's like maturity is so far away.

now about the camp... hmm... God really is so good... this camp is ery different from the previous camp, to me it is something more solid and not so much of emotions...
hmm... my expectations were met
He showed me that He's my Father and I'm not an orphan and I have a family name
I don't have to strvie hard to do things to get His acceptance and approval
people have prayed about this for me but never have it been so real to me...He was just affirming me of His love for me that I don't have to do hings on my own,especially the part of the song which goes " you're my joy, my delight".
another thing that struck me was the sermon on the harvestfield. it's like Jesus said go and don't stop until He says so... wow... God is just speaking to me in what i've wanted to do... yar...

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